It's been a while since I traveled across Canada, but I was certainly excited and pumped to make this trip. I left Fort McMurray and traveled all the way to, Newfoundland and Labrador, where I spent quality time with my parents and siblings. It was the first time I really felt rooted in who I am. I had a real sense of being HOME. It's been a long time since we all got together again and it was lovely. I am grateful!
My mindset was very different this time, as opposed the the other times I made this journey. But then, I am not the same as I used to be. I have spent years peeling back layers of my identities and now, I am experience more of my true unique self. Its not so much changing who I am but more about remembered who I really am.
I view my life, the circumstance and people around me, through a lens of love. I have left the judgement and the stories (that I would tell myself), behind me. As I become more aware and wiser, I soon realized, the stories and perceptions were but a refection of my own inner thoughts and creations, most of which was conditioned in me over the duration of my lifetimes.
Revisiting the deepest secret places inside myself and a lot of shadow work, (most of which I spent my lifetime running from) my vision became so much clearer. I soon realized that all the choices I made were mine, and mine alone. Taking full responsibility as the veil was lifted, felt so freeing, liberating and expansive.
Such simplicity and beauty captured my heart unlike anything I have ever known or imagined.
I wondered so often, how this beauty, these miracles of nature, the feeling of freedom, the heightened senses; vivid colors, smells, sounds, touch and unique taste, could ever have been overlooked. It was completely invisible within my unconscious busy life. I see things from the inside looking out now, and I actually see the world for what it really is. It is truly beautiful.
Don't try to change the world. First, change yourself or rather, your self-perception, and you find the world automatically corresponding to the level of your understanding. You will find that it has always been you who set the pace and depth of your experience by recognizing and honoring your true nature. -Mooji
I could hardly contain myself with just the thought of all that nature, waking up to the birds singing in the stillness of the morning and experiencing such inner peace. As I watched the sun rise, bringing the mysteries of the day drinking my coffee, I would watch the squirrels jump from tree to tree and the baby deer chasing their momma. My senses completely heightened as I sat in a calm feeling of gratitude for Mother Earths (Gaia) and all her abundance, richness and wonders. So thankful, so blessed and free.